let's agree to disagree.

i just can't seem to drink you off my mind.

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 23:41:06 GMT

Jude Law is kind of great.

Aside from having an adorable accent, he also says things like this:

"'The only person I’m in love with at the moment is sitting on my left,' Jude said, pointing at Robert, who was seated next to him in front of the press."

yeah, they're cute :)

P.S. just thought i'd post something small, because I didn't want to completely abandon LJ, but at the same time, this week is hectic, so I won't be able to be on until after school ends. Expect a full update Friday though =)

tangled up in blue.

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 01:09:39 GMT

+ Last week was amazing. I applied for a scholarship and my favourite teacher wrote me a reference letter that actually brought me to tears. It's really something when someone who you admire says great things about you. Everything just seemed so fantastic that last week of November, and I just can't say the same for today. Today has been horribly depressing and I've been so nervous and angry since approximately 2:20PM. Since around 4, the anger turned into a sort of dull depression. Everyone told me this girl was a double-crossing, back-stabbing smug bitch, and now I'm actually starting to see it. Not to mention, I'll absolutely cry if she gets chosen for the scholarship instead of me. I'm taking higher level courses!

+ I'm debating on whether or not to post my M/A fic on the comms at LJ. Or if I should wait and find a beta.

+ I have a philosophy reflection to finish! UGH. This may be the last one though, which is always good news. Also, Voltaire ftw.

+ So many projects, so little time! I feel like school is taking over my life D:

+ May be going to Western U on Friday, which will be exciting. I'll definitely have to remember to bring my camera if I go. I want pictures! As excited as I am, it seems so pointless visiting all these other universities when I've got my heart set so firmly on attending the England campus of Queen's.

You can do no wrong.

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 22:31:28 GMT

I can't believe I just wrote a one-shot Arthur/Merlin HP crossover while I'm supposed to be at a birthday.

Well, in five years time...

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 01:12:53 GMT

I'm so excited.

Tomorrow morning at 8:30AM, the grade twelves have a mandatory presentation/seminar in the cafeteria to acquire registration codes and learn how to apply for universities online. I told my dad I was absolutely psyched, but he just didn't get it. "It's just another assembly, maria". He doesn't get that it's a step further to the rest of my life, apparently. But come tomorrow afternoon at 2:30pm when I get home from school, I can begin applying for universities. I've narrowed my choice down to three separate universities (but technically 4, since the "fourth" is an extension/alternate campus for another option)

1. Queen's University Herstmonceaux Castle in Sussex, England.
>That's my number one choice. ENGLAND. Well, a Canadian university with a campus in England, but honestly, I've read so many brochures, as well as talked to so many students who have done the program and it sounds absolutely phenomenal. Also, I know what I want to study and what I'm interested in, so for myself, I can't picture anything better.

2. Queen's University.
> The one in Canada, obviously. I went there way back in October and I honestly did like it. The Arts library was fantastic and there was such a sense of community there that I didn't get from the University of Toronto or York. Not to mention, the people had such spirit, an array of facilities and HARRY POTTER THEMED DORM.

3. University of Toronto
> To be honest, this one is simply on my list because my dad went there, and is therefore pressuring me to do the same. I thought the dt campus was lovely, but the people just seemed so... well, not the same as Queen's. Where I got a community feeling from Kingston, everyone at the UofT just seemed very "whatever, get lost, yeah?". Apparently, it's very good for history though, which is what I'm looking to study.

4. Western
> I have yet to visit the campus, but I'm about to book one of those private tours they have open to prospective students. The presentation they gave at my high school was so good though! The spokesperson for the school was the most hilarious Scottish person I've ever met! He was exactly like my Scottish doctor, middle-aged with a sense of humour ! Not to mention, he made such a convincing case to go to Western. I can't wait to see the school.

But yeah, those are my choices and I can't wait to see if I actually get accepted to any by Feb-May! Aside from that, I handed in my history CPT essay today. Honestly, wish me luck with that thing. I worked so hard on it for days and I still didn't feel confident. *sigh* November's are so busy!

p.s. Canada, WHY AREN'T YOU SNOWING YET?

This is not the sound of a new man or crispy realization

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 17:02:51 GMT

Guys, honestly, I'm about to cry.

I have a major essay (which we honestly didn't get enough time for) due wednesday, along with a test monday and tuesday.

Not to mention, I've missed last night's Merlin and the Doctor Who Special is on tonight.

So I think I'm going to work really hard starting @ 12:00pm and work up until 10:20pm and then watch some TV to cool down. I won't fall asleep 'till around 2am.

Then I'm thinking taking a mental health day (to work on my essay) tomorrow, until 4th period is the best course of action.
Repeat for Tuesday.

So please feel free to either kill me or leave encouraging thoughts in comments?
Love you all.

You're the boy with all the leather hips, sticky hair, sticky hips, stubble on my sticky lips

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 01:44:07 GMT

Guys, AM I THE ONLY ONE SHIPPING DAMON/STEFAN?

Yeah, so I'm watching VD from last night, and let me tell you, this episode is impressing me so much! I love it! And I'm shipping those boys sooo hardcore xD

Did you watch it last night? Leave your thoughts!

P.S. The Emily thing is giving me the shivers. & That new history teacher is HAWT. Alric? whatever, do me.

I can love you much better

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 02:41:48 GMT

GUISEEEEE. GUISEEEE.

*ahem*, yes, you all.

That is Chris Pine

I'm not even kidding.
There's a guy in one of my classes, who looks A HELL OF A LOT LIKE Chris Pine.
They have the same facial structure and can both rock that perfect stubble that I find so hot.
I want to ask if they're related or something.

I'm seriously jealous of his girlfriend.

It's Friday, I'm in love.

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 01:22:07 GMT

I'm not going to lie, I love how I spend my Friday nights with a few good books + some great television shows, while everyone else is off to the movie theatre to watch a movie everybody knows is going to be crappy.

I know, it's insanely anti-social and kind of nerdy of me, but who the hell cares, am I right? I'm lying on my bed, it's warm, and I'm listening to the National, enjoying a quiet night before the frenzy of the weekend starts. I've got homework, an essay outline and a university to go to tomorrow. I've suddenly become a busy girl, caught up in the stress of the pre-University year.

I got my mid-term back yesterday, btw. I'm doing well. Excellent, really. I celebrated by watching Supernatural as opposed to doing my philosophy reflection. I made the right choice, the episode was a perfect combination of utterly hilarious and astonishing (REALLY. THERE WAS A PLOT TWIST I DIDN'T EXPECT). Also, Papa Winchester is God. It's nothing I didn't already know ;D

@wewereinfinite

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 02:30:51 GMT

is now my twitter username!
I was getting bored of @bringthenight, and I didn't know what to call it so I turned to the book closest to me and ta-dah!

But yes, that's just a note to all my followers on twitter. And if you'd wish to follow me there then http://twitter.com/wewereinfinite is the link, it's not horribly interesting, but hey, it's my life =)

I am indecisive and that's about it

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 19:26:06 GMT

GUYS, I SKIPPED A CLASS.

Actually, not only did I skip a class, but I skipped law class. Any normal day, I usually end up arguing with the teacher, therefore he teacher hates me. Today was special though, because we totally had the vice principle supervising the class today. And I skipped it. And he probably knows.

Here's the story. I have spare first period. So today, I spent it studying for my Philosophy (third period) test. When I got to school, I went into my Philo teacher's class and asked for help, and spent most of the period there until I bought chocolate milk in the caf. Then I went back to my Philo teacher's class and 'lo and behold, one of my best friends is also asking for help. I knew it was close to second period and that I should be going, but we just kept talking to him, and then walked to the Philosophy portable to ask more questions. The bell rings and the three of us are still talking. 5 minutes goes by and I say "maybe I should be going?". They say "who needs law?". 10 minutes. 15 minutes. 30 minutes. "HOLY FUCK. GUYS, I'M MISSING LAW".

I obviously didn't end up going. The three of us just ended up drifting off the topic of philosophy and onto movies and other stories. It was actually kind of hilarious; I laughed a lot. But I was kind of mentally freaking out so I asked my teacher if he could call the office and pretend to be my dad, which seems ridiculous, BUT REALLY. THE VP WAS IN MY CLASS AND I SKIPPED. But that's ok. Everything worked out because I got my mum to call in and lie, saying I was sick, while in the meantime, I spent a good 3 hours in Philosophy. The 3rd period was spent doing the test, which turned out to be an EPIC FAIL, because I had forgot all about Subjective Idealism and the Pragmatic Theories whilst discussing Fight Club and Sean Connery's greatest movies. I guess there's always hoping I did well?

Anyways, I've got an Annotated Bibliography for World History and a Philosophy reflection to complete by tomorrow. Wish me luck, I need it.

ALSO. Today this girl came up to me, asking if there were any clubs I was apart of. When I asked why, she said it was because the journalism club was looking to do a few articles on exceptional senior students and quite a few teachers nominated me. ME. Of all people, really. I definitely want to find out who these teachers are and give them chocolates and hugs. That's really flattering, I couldn't stop the blush when she said it.

I make them good girls go bad.

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 23:52:50 GMT

No, really. I do.

See, there's something you guys should know about me. I tend to bring out the worst in good people. Or at least that's what my friend says. I have a bit of a history in making the "golden girls" look like idiots. Or at least angering them pretty quickly. The ironic thing? I don't even know what I've done most of the time. Usually it's flirting with the guy they've got a crush on, or accidently tripping them with my constantly untied shoe laces. But I swear, I don't start fights; I sure as hell end them.

Usually, I don't disclose names on my lj. I mean, I definitely project my own. It's no secret my name is Maria. But I don't list the names of my friends or rivals, or whatever. Possibly to protect their identity or to make sure they don't know who I happen to talk about, should they read it. For this case, however, I'm not going to bother with initials to represent people.

So, I mention "F" a lot in here (at least I think I do), which would make sense, because she's pretty much my best friend. Every Tuesday, we go to a film club at our school, stay for an hour and a half, the usual. Today's feature film was "Pick Me Up" from the Masters of Horror box set. My brother was ecstatic they played Avenged Sevenfold in the short movie. Anyways, F and I are leaning back in our chairs watching the movie when someone taps my shoulder. I turn around and see it's this girl, Mariam, who was in my gr.11 bio class (last year).

"You're name is Maria, right?" she (obnoxiously) asked
"Yep, yours truly. What's up Mariam?"

her: Yeah, whatever. You won the english award, didn't you?
me: For Grade 11 University? Yeah, I did.
her: Well, what teacher did you have?
me: Ms. M. How about you?
her: same, I had her to.
me: Yeah... I liked her
her: So what did you get? Because I don't think you got higher than me. My writing was amazing and I really doubt you did better than my mark, so I want to know what you did to possibly deserve the award.
me: *kind of shocked* ... I worked my ass off and I got a 96%, but hey, if you know you did that much better than me, I'll happily hand over the award.
her: Oh. I got a 93. I don't know how you got 96.
me: yeah. well. I did.

I think I conveyed the "So SUCK IT, bitch" in my voice intonation at the end.

F was looking pretty shocked, and I swear I was about to fucking SLAP her. But I didn't, only because I didn't want to cause trouble for the monitoring teacher. But REALLY!? Can you believe the audacity of some people? Does she think I'm not capable of excelling? Of succeeding her marks? I'm sorry, I work so damn hard for what I do, who does she think she is to question my integrity and merit? I don't fucking get some people.

I don't know Mariam well at all, but I recognize her as a member of Pro-Life and a debate (where she argued homosexuality wasn't 'right'). I've seen her in the caf praying before every meal. I hope she prays for forgiveness, because she definitely won't get any from me. Fucking Bitch.

</rant>

SKINS, Canada

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 00:02:51 GMT

On November 21st, roughs and I are going to audition for SKINS Canada/US.
I think that's major win.

It's kind of surreal, because on twitter, this guy, Jason, is always saying how Rebecca + I would be ideal for a Skins Canada, so I had quite a laugh when I read the casting call. Realistically, I don't have a shot in hell making the cut, but still, shits and giggles, you know? It's going to be fun.

I want miss little smart girl with your glasses and all your books

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 00:29:29 GMT

+ Alright, so the story is, I've been so damn busy lately, I've barely had time to do anything more than study and write essays. With the exception of Friday night's quarter-life breakdown post, of course, but between you and me, I think I had a good reason.

+ My brother has a girlfriend. Like a legit oh-hai-there-we're-dating girlfriend. Fortunately for him, he's smart so he didn't tell the family about it. Unfortunately for him, he's added my best friend on facebook. I obviously found out. So, I've never met the girl, but her name is Maria. Which instantly gets her some win-points, because HELLO, that's my name! But I'd like to meet her? Maybe after my brother decides to tell me he has a girlfriend. He's a year and a half younger than me, and if I'm honest, I think it makes me feel a bit inadequate to know that he has got a boyfriend/girlfriend before I had one. And then again, I really have no desire to have one. It's all about competition in this house.

+ Missed House to watch Gossip Girl yesterday. Not gonna lie, watched it solely for Chuck to kiss Mr. Ellis (Josh, whatevs). I FELT SO RIPPED OFF. That was not a kiss. That was a peck. I was expecting a full on heated make out session. Hands gripped in hair, other's on neck, eyes closed and... ahem. Point is... I'm still not shipping Chuck/Blair

+ I went to Queen's University this past weekend! For those of you who don't live in Canada - which is, I think, most of you, except roughs - Queen's is a pretty sweet university. It's "one of Canada's leading universities", it's in a small town, just far enough so I can live out of my own, but close enough so I can drive back on the weekend if I want to. There was an Open House this weekend, which basically means you get to go check it out and they'll give you a tour. I really wish I brought my camera. It was so pretty, the people had such school spirit and the library was absolutely phenomenal. Really, I may have started hyperventilating and attracting weird looks. BUT A SPIRAL STAIRCASE, and the walls all lined with books? I don't think I believe in God, but I might have just seen heaven.
So yes. Ideal place to go to school for me. But want to hear the BEST part of it? We took a tour of one of the girl's dormitories, right, and our tour guide, a fifth year student Victoria, says to us "alright, well this floor is Harry Potter themed." Do I have to repeat that to you? This floor is Harry Potter themed. Yeah. Just process that. I might have started crying.
Also, I mentioned a few entries ago, that my parents were considering letting me study first year in England, in a campus affiliated with Queen's.
The castle looks like this:

That's a motherfucking castle.

+ Aside from all that "OMG I LOVE QUEEN'S" ramble, I have two other university open houses to check out! U of T is this Saturday, and then Western two weeks later. This whole growing-up process is really quite exciting.

+ We have Awards-Day on Thursday. Which means we get to spend half the day in an assembly, listening to the recipients for Honour Roll and an array of different Subject awards. I know I've made Honour Roll again. My best friend reckons I snagged the English award. My neighbour thinks with all the high praise, I've managed the American History award. My other friend is saying I've definitely bagged the law award. I just want my parents to take me out for dinner. Maybe at The Keg :)

+ I haven't left the house for some real shopping in about two months. Which is unbelievable, if you know my track record. On the other hand, I saved up a good $200 bucks or so.

+ I need new Chuck episodes now.

+ We're covering Louis XIV in West & The World History class. "Louis XIV" by the band Louis XIV keeps playing in my head endlessly for those 1

+ Epic debate: law homework, or watch Skins? I'm leaning a lot towards Skins.

ETA: I really need to learn how to make lj layouts.

i don't want to bend like the bad girls bend

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 01:31:06 GMT

I still run on the stupid notion that behind my glasses, no one can see me cry. I know it's completely a lie, that it's a false sense of security, and I know that the little girl in the stickers aisle at Michael's saw fat, clear tears on my face, but you know what? It's still a comfort if I pretend she can't, even after 10 years.

Why was I crying in Michael's at closing time, you ask? Because tonight was really fucking shitty. The second I came home my dad started yelling at me. I didn't even figure out why until 10 minutes into his tirade. I had my brother's support, but it still wasn't enough, because what my father says? It might as well be the fucking law. Then my brother went to the movies and I made a bunch of decisions that I regretted soon after, yet it was far too late to take them back. I got into the car and almost got killed twice because my dad wouldn't stop fighting with me and berating me from the passenger's seat. Then we get out and into Michael's and while walking through the doors he's telling me I have to leave what happens in the car or else I'll go crazy. I just nod blindly and bite my tongue from saying "oh, i'll already get there, it's in my genetic code". Then we part ways in the store, me purposely going in the opposite direction, and I start crying. But whatever. The store was pretty much empty, and I'm pretty sure the little girl didn't mind, she kind of gave me a comforting smile.

But sometimes life just sucks. Busy weekends when nothing seems to go as planned. For all the hope and optimim I have, every time I say "i want to save the world" or today's youth, or whatever, I remember I can't even get my own life sorted out, and instantly my hope dissipates. But then I cling to are the little things that come out of the mouths of almost-strangers or personal heroes, the tiny actions that everyone else misses, but I still pick up on, well, I guess they restore some of my missing confidence.

But really, I wish I would have taken you up on your offer, we would have had a great time, and I wouldn't be stuck crying all night, missing the only person I can call and cry to anytime.

man this ain't my dad, it's a cell phone.

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 19:25:43 GMT

+ Man, today was busy, to say the least. Woke up at 7 am, headed over to the school at regular time and wasted my first period spare listening to a presentation for a local university. I felt so intimidated.

+ I love my history class, and my teacher is, quite possibly, the greatest teacher on this side of the Earth, but wow, that test took A LOT out of me. I studied, so I thought I knew my stuff, but it was so much writing. He spent an extra 10 minutes waiting for me to finish my test. I can't believe he actually waited. I really hope I did well, I don't want my mark to go down!

+ Philosophy is a killer. I hate that class. I love the teacher, yeah, but the coursework is just so dull. Not to mention, I have one friend in the class, everybody else may as well be a stranger to me. So when I got my mark back, I was extremely disappointed. I saw it coming... but still, I wanted to get a higher mark. It wasn't bad. 85%, second in the class. Compared to my previous marks, I was kind of crushed. My mood brightened considerably when my teacher said "Kid, if you're getting this mark, you gotta be doing something right". Just for totally making my day, I'm going to study so hard for this test tomorrow.

+ I CAN'T BELIEVE I HAVE TO MISS GLEE TONIGHT. Really. Managing TV + school sucks. But what's gotta be done kind of has to be done.

+ I realistically won't post until the 20th of October. At least. Reason being is I have A TON of reading and assignments to complete, and on top of that I have to take an out of town trip to visit a university I want to attend. It's actually only 3hrs away, but still. I may actually have the time to post when I'm there actually, who knows?

+ I want to see roughs BUT I'M SO DAMN BUSY.

+ Also, because I like it and it makes me cry from laughing too hard:

you and me could write a bad romance.

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 21:56:06 GMT

+ I'm trying to keep up with at least weekly posting, but livejournal informs me I haven't blogged in, oh, two weeks. I'm failing at my resolution.

+ I FOUND MY GLASSES. Unless you've sat at the back of the class, straining your eyes constantly to read your philosophy teacher's chicken scratch writing, you probably don't know how i'm happy this makes me :)

+ A guy I haven't spoken to in a year started flirting with me on the stairs on friday. I was kinda shocked, but happy at the same time because he's HILARIOUS.

+ It feels so weird to not like anyone. Whenever my friends are talking about guys they like/would like to date/boyfriends, I feel so awkward because I can think of none.

+ Saw Zombieland on Saturday with my friend. I laughed a few times, but I didn't think it was as funny as everyone told me previous to that. It was okay. My friend seemed to enjoy it, and I saw a few guys from my school at the theatres that absolutely LOVED it. I won't spoil the movie though, no worries :)

+ I'm totally obsessed with texts from last night. They're so hilarious, honestly.
(303): I don't like the word whore. I prefer the term penis enthusiast.
or
(440): I just did the classiest thing ever.
(216): last time you said that you got chlamydia.
Some people are just brilliant.

+ Another thing I absolutely love? MERLIN! The tv show. explodeyy totally got me hooked. Have I mentioned this before? Well, no matter. I totally love it. Merlin/Arthur ftmfw. And I adore Morgana! I didn't like her at first, but I so do now. Gwen/Arthur, however, that's one thing I'm not digging.

+ Speaking of TV, how great were the shows last night?! Loved House, liked Heroes for the first time in a while, and laughed so much during The Big Bang Theory! I was so pleasantly surprised during Heroes though, and after talking with my friend Rhett, I realized why; the episode was devoid of its weakest link, Matt Parkman. I think the character of Matt Parkman is so bland and far too powerful he never actually has a good story line. Also, I LOVELOVELOVE Zachary Quinto, and I think he's fabulous, but maybe Heroes should lay off Sylar for a while. They've exhausted every possibility with the character, and it totally hurts me to be saying that, since he was my favourite character in Seasons 1 & 2.

+ I acted like such a bitch yesterday, and I can't really say why on here, because even though I don't have that person as an LJ friend, she might know the link to my journal. I don't feel bad though, not at all.

+ I'm supposed to be studying for a history test right now, but I'm so damn nervous about this year that my concentration on work is just all over the place. I can't focus.

I can resist everything except temptation.

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 21:11:28 GMT

[;;] I haven't updated in two weeks, and the last update wasn't much of an update, more of a rant that was geared toward someone who's not even on here.

[;;] I started school! That's right guys, I'm in my final year of highschool. A senior, gosh, I'm old.

[;;] I'm catching up on The Tudors! I'm on 2x09. I forgot how much I like that show. And with Jonathan Rhys Meyer and Henry Cavill as leading men? Well, feeding my giant love affair with history and need for eye candy? There's not much I'm going to complain about.

[;;] After watching a fanvideo (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x5n-RnNbLnQ) I decided to start watching Merlin, which is perfect, because I clearly need more television shows </sarcasm>. But no, really, it only has one season (the second started yesterday, I believe), and I'm already on episode 5, and I'm actually enjoying it. Also, Arthur, he's tres belle. And by that I mean hot. Merlin's pretty adorable as well.

[;;] TOMORROW IS A BIG NIGHT. 2hr premieres of House and Heroes, plus The Big Bang Theory also begins. As I said, big night, can't wait :)

[;;] I decided I'm going to begin to diet. For real, this time. I'm feeling so unhealthy, and I guess dropping a pant size couldn't hurt.

[;;] Above, I mentioned I started school. That was on the 7th, and let me tell you, I'm already hating it. I guess roughs was right, as she usually is :P

[;;] Anyways, that was a short update on my life, but for now, I've got a law test to study for, so for now, adieu.

Am I the only sour cherry on the fruit stand?

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 16:06:04 GMT

This. Is. Not. Working.

There's a severe imbalance in our friendship. It feels so hollow, so one-sided, that I don't think it really counts for much anymore. You don't really care what I do, what I have to say, or about much at all, to be honest. I put so much effort into it, and it feels like I'm just friends with a figment of my imagination now, would it be too dramatic if I said a pale imitation of what you used to be? I don't even think you realize it either. Or maybe you do. Maybe you realize you're losing me, but you just don't care? I don't know how it got this way. Believe me, I've done everything I could to save it. I've tried so hard, and now I'm just tired. I'm so close to giving up. I love you, and you think you love me.

Does anyone have this problem with friends? Lately, it's all I can think about and I could really use some advice.

Sorry for the lack of entries, I had a funeral all last weekend, and now when I finally get around to posting something, it's all anger. I hope to post again in a few days but right now I'm about to go out with roughs, and I'm pretty psyched :)

talk to you all later, prettys :)

logic will break your heart

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 18:32:26 GMT

OFF TO WASHINGTON, DC.
I'll miss you all!

put on a slow, dumb show for you

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 22:30:44 GMT

[+] I've been watching X-Men Evolution ALL DAY! This is the stuff I used to wake up early Saturday morning for, the cartoons that pretty much made up my entire life years back. And they're on Youtube, so naturally, that's what I've been doing. OMGGAMBITTT! I think it's ever since I watched the Wolverine movie, I just fell in love all over again? I wouldn't say it was an "epic" movie, or amazing, but did I like it? Yeah, I did. It had two of my favourite marvel superheroes in it, how could I not? Remy LeBeau was the guy I told my dad I would marry when I was 5 years old, seeing him come to life on my TV screen was great, thought I didn't think he had enough parts (Gambit can never have enough parts in my book). Although... Gambit should've had the black and red eyes. I think some one has to remind me that rl is not a comic book.

And Ryan Reynolds as Deadpool/Wade Wilson? I thought they screwed with his story a bit, but I thought Ryan Reynolds did a good job, especially with keeping Deadpool as the Merc with a Mouth. How cocky was that in the elevator?
Wade Wilson: Great, stuck in an elevator with 5 guys on a high protein diet.
Wade Wilson: Oh Wade!
Wade Wilson: Dreams really do come true.
Stryker: Now just shut it! You’re up next.
Wade Wilson: Thank you sir, you look really nice today. It’s the green, it brings out the seriousness in your eyes.
Logan: Oh my God, do you ever shut up, pal?
Wade Wilson: No, not while I’m awake.

and in the preview:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VwLh7u6zdHs&feature=related

HOW CAN YOU NOT BE IN LOVE WITH RYAN REYNOLDS?
I honestly hope the Deadpool movie does not disappoint [can I beg for them to stick to the comics?] :)
Liev Schrieber who played Sabertooth did a phenomenal job, unfortunately the same cannot be said for Wolverine's love interest, she was terrible, sorry! Was anybody else in awe of the muscle Hugh Jackman put on for that movie? Dude, he's 40! I was pleasantly shocked.

[+] Later on the agenda, Die Hard and probably finish up watching Alien, and follow onto Aliens (Michael Biehn, ftmfw, do i need to remind anyone how in love with him I am?). I seriously need to finish reading some books too.

[+]NTS: STOP SKIPPING WORK!

[+] This entry doesn't have much of a point, so I'll add that I'm completely in love with the song I'm listening to! Download SLOW SHOW here!How are you all doing? :)

love is not a victory march

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 21:44:33 GMT

Guys, I love Brad Pitt.

I'll make it right.

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 20:06:31 GMT

explodeyy did a meme which might have been entitled "5 Things you may (or may not) know about me", but I can't really remember and I didn't have much else to write about, so I decided to follow her lead :)

1. All I want to do is be smarter. I get good grades and the thing that immediately pops into my mind after seeing them is not pride, but more like “I can do better”. Even if the mark is already as perfect as it’s going to get. I don’t like accepting praises from others based on my marks because I’ve always felt like I’ve cheated, even though I don’t mean it literally. When someone says “Gosh, Maria, you’re smart”, I can only think “No, I’m really not” and about 1250 ways I could put myself more toward studying. Maybe I’m ambitious, or stubborn, or maybe I just have a low self esteem (I don’t think so), but I don’t want to be pretty, I don’t want to be rich, I just want to be a fucking genius

2. I want to join the army. It’s hard for me to give an exact reason or place an exact date to the moment I decided I wanted this, but I can tell you it’s got something to do with my respect for everyone who has served their country, along with my fascination for training with weapons. I know TV and comics have had something to do with this, but it would be something that would make me proud as well. I probably won’t ever do it, because I’m afraid to disappoint my parents, but if I could do anything I wanted, this would probably be it. I think I’d even become a mercenary, if offered. I know it’s a different, more violent, occupation, but you know what? Deadpool was a merc. And I’m slightly crazy.

3. I have the biggest problem with “relationships”. I’m not bad at giving advice, honest, I’m not, but it seems I’ve definitely got a problem with taking my own. I’m not ugly, or at least I don’t think so. I’m not startlingly pretty either, I’d just classify myself under “normal” in the looks department, but I know there have been guys who’ve “liked” me, or whatever. I just tend to completely ignore it though. It’s not completely to do with the fact I don’t believe in love, because I’m not expecting to find the idea of love in a high school relationship anyways. I just think romantic relationships would take too much of a toll on me. They’d only serve as a distraction or something to tie me down, and it’s not what I want. Not now, maybe not ever. It doesn’t mean I’ve never liked a person though, I’m not completely cold, but they’ve just all been so unattainable that it’s never had to exceed the stage of just looking and thinking of possibilities, what-ifs and might-have-beens. I think I’m fine with it, and I think it bothers my friends more than me.

4. I’m so different from my family members, which sometimes gets to me. I’m actually nothing like them, most of the time, which kind of makes me feel like the outsider. I’m the eldest child, which logically should mean that because of the 18 month age gap between my brother and I, as opposed to the 7 year gap between my sister and I, I should be a lot more like my brother than my sister is. Or at least I should take after one of my parents? I’m not sure. Of course, my brother and I get along just fine, far better than he and my sister do, but they share so many personality traits that I only sometimes wish I had. There’s the fact that I don’t look like my siblings, yeah, but there’s also differences in the way we all behave. The rest of my family always screams when they’re angry, but the animosity doesn’t last long, where as with me, I can draw it out, and if I exact revenge it’ll be in a cunning way that’s more of a mindfuck. Then there’s the fact that I seem to want to share so much while they rather keep to themselves and just keep it that way. Or that they think it’s strange that I know more about comic books and science fiction than my dad and my brother and none of them share my views on anything. But that’s ok, because most of the time we all get along just fine and I don’t spare the aforementioned problems a second thought.

5. As you probably noticed, I can’t keep anything short and concise. Whether I’m talking about my sordid love affair with music or what I ate for dinner, I tend to go off on a tangent that only ends when someone shuts me up.

Twilight: Jasper/Maria - Life is for the Taking

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 21:39:33 GMT

I just dug up a fanmix I started over a year ago. I don't even really like Twilight much anymore...t the stuff I have rotting around in my computer. Anyways! The art is nothing spectacular, because, hello, I can't use photoshop, but enjoy anyways!
It's probably worth mentioning I used Matt Barr as Jasper (since I'm not a fan of Jackson Rathbone, sorry!) and Sophie Ellis Bextor, a British singer, as Maria, who although is supposed to be Mexican-looking, no mexican actresses came to my head.

Medium: Books
Fandom: Twilight
Subject: Jasper/Maria
Title: Life Is For The Taking
Warnings: Spoilers for Eclipse, that's it.
Notes: I think I started this about a year ago, and the project was completely ditched when I lost all motivation following the release of Breaking Dawn and the Twilight movie. This is a mix basically just emphasizing the basis of the entire relationship: violence and power. Before Jasper was meant anything to Maria, he was her little soldier first. I'm pretty sure it's the first fanmix I've ever posted, don't be too harsh ;)

ETA: The song "I'm Bad" has a separate download link because I uploaded it a bit later.

Life is for the Taking - Jasper/Maria

oo1. New Born | Muse [Jasper]
The bitterness inside
Is growing like the new born
When you've seen, seen
Too much, too young, young
Soulless is everywhere

Hopeless time to roam
The distance to your home
Fades away to nowhere
How much are you worth
You can't come down to earth
You’re swelling up, you're unstoppable
'cause you've seen, seen
Too much, too young

oo2. Creator | Santogold [Maria]
Creator – Santogold
Me, I'm a Creator
Thrill is to make it up
The rules I break got me a place
Up on the radar
Me, I'm a Taker
Know what the stakes are

oo3. Oh Maria | Sam Roberts [Jasper]
Five more years of living in fear
I beg for my supper at night
If this is love then it don't feel right
And my heart's burning out of control
They gave her five, but she's out on parole

Hey, hey hey,
This girl is leading me astray

oo4. I'm Bad | The Last Vegas [Maria]
Sucked the life right out of you, you were once so alive.
Rotting, stinking, wilted rose, completely paralyzed.
Destruction is in high gear and your heart is what I sell.
Now pack your bags, we're leaving here. I'm taking you to hell.

oo5. Black Black Heart | David Usher [Jasper]
Something ugly this way comes
Through my fingers sliding inside
All these blessings all these burns
I'm godless underneath your cover
Search for pleasure search for pain
In this world now I am undying

oo6. The Stupid, The Proud | IAMX
The army, so faithful,
The killers of reason,
The grief for the crown.

oo7. First We Take Manhatten | Leonard Cohen [Maria]
I'm guided by a signal in the heavens
I'm guided by this birthmark on my skin
I'm guided by the beauty of our weapons
First we take Manhattan, then we take Berlin
(…)
You know the way to stop me, but you don't have the discipline
How many nights I prayed for this, to let my work begin
First we take Manhattan, then we take Berlin

oo8. Monologue | She Wants Revenge [Jasper]
Lover forgive me my guilt is my only crime
And ill carry it round till it breaks me down every time

This is the time of night when the moonlight shines down and we can reveal who we truly are
Within the darkest most depraved of joys

oo9.In For The Kill | LaRoux [Maria]
I'm going in for the kill
I'm doing it for a thrill

o1o. Your Sweet 666 – HIM [Jasper & Maria]
There are things you should know
And the distance between us seems to grow
But you're holding on strong
And, oh, how hard it is to let go,

o11. Soldier’s Poem | Muse [Jasper]
you know damn well that this is wrong
I would still lay down my life for you

o12. Monsters | Matchbook Romance [Jasper]
Girl, what's come between you and me?
look right through me
i'll let it go
i can't help this feeling anymore
i won't go anywhere
maybe you'll see me

o13. Glittering Blackness | Explosions in the Sky

.zip
I'm Bad

Colour my life with the chaos of trouble

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 17:07:12 GMT

It's a tough life charming tech support guys over the phone and dreaming of ice cream and strawberry topped waffles. Yes... yes, it is.

I wanna say it's been a trying 3 days for me, but it really hasn't. I haven't been going to work all that often lately. I just find that it's tedious and I make no sort of accomplishment there. It's not like my father actually has me do much, so instead I've been staying at home trying to write up a resume. So far, unsuccessful. I need references, but one of them is away on vacation and the other one I haven't had a chance to see yet. Damn. I think I'll apply after my vacation though. I'm thinking Rogers, the video rental place that's only a 3 minute drive away is good. Really good, even, since my best friend (who was previously mentioned returning from Italy), works in that same plaza. I already told her of this plan and she simply said "I don't think that place can handle the both of us working there", and that, well, it pretty much summed up my thoughts.

Speaking of my friend, we saw 500 Days of Summer together on Friday. She entertained me with stories of Italy and I filled her in on my life while she was gone before the movie started. It was fun times. The movie was great, I'm pretty sure we both agreed that it was not only quirky and entertaining, but it had a pretty sweet soundtrack. We agree on almost everything, we're awesome like that.

I can't say I remember what happened Saturday, but Sunday my dad's friend from law school came over, and I think I posted something about being nervous as hell. Well, it was awkward at parts with his kids, but come on, what do you say after you haven't seen each other for 10 years? To make matters a bit worse, the eldest child was 15, which, for those of you who do not know, is younger than I am. Seriously, age doesn't bother me at all, one of my best friends is still 14 (ha, december baby), all that really matters is that we have some things in common, but idk, wasn't really feeling a spark though. My dad's friend however, was hilarious. Hilariously vulgar and greatly amusing, such a contrast to his wife who was all sweetness and gentle humor. They were nice people though, it was kind of fun to hear about how different their lives were.

And since then I've just been lazing around the house. Exercised a bit, swam in the pool with my little sister, and it looks like I'll be doing the same thing today. I'm thinking I'll work tomorrow, but right now all I really about is watching Doctor Who later with Sammy. I'm insanely excited for the new specials, and even more surprising, the new season in 2010. I just want to see how everything changes, although David Tennant'll always be my doctor.

Speaking of the Doctor, my neighbour showed me this picture of a singer, William Beckett, who I did not recognize with the short hair [but I think it looks faaaarrr better on him than the long hair did]. I don't know what band he's from, tbh, but this picture (which vapored later confirmed was photoshopped)? Well, it slayed me.

eeep.

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 16:20:31 GMT

My dad invited his friend from law school over. Yeah, it's not usually as bad when it's all just older people, but apparently, this guy has 4 kids, who are approximately the same age as my brother and I. They just rang the doorbell and I'm nervous as hell. Oh shit, what if it's real awkward?